Hi, I am Suez. I am 33 years old now.
My first cigarette was when I was 14th years old, the same year I start using alcohol. I didn't really get addicted by then, until I was 17th year old, when one night me and my classmate finish whole two pack in one night. Since then I was a chained smoker.
I paused smoking and drinking when I was pregnant in 1998, but even I was pregnant, I was still lit up a cigarette when I am upset, seems like every smoker, cigarette is the only "friend" who understand me all the time. I paused smoking for around 2 years, and then I back to smoking again. After I divorced, I am back to alcohol too, which triggered me to smoke more. I smoke around 20 cigarettes a day.
On October 2008, I paused smoking again, and I manage to made it for 4 months, until one day, after lunch i have the urge to smoke...I though I would only smoke one. But, yes... I am back to 20 cigarettes a day again.
Since then until 9 April 2010, I'd been trying to quit, but usually I only can made it no more than 7 days...
Starting 2010 I'd been set my quit date, from 1st Jan, 1 Feb to 1st March. Every time when I almost finished my cigarettes stock, I started to panicked, and then I purchase one more cartoon and told myself that that was the last one, but the last one continue for 3 months.
End of March, I started to have irregular heart beat, my heart can beat very strong suddenly, and sometime i had anxiety attack. I started to scared that I may had heart attack. But, it still didn't stop me from smoking.
On 9th April 2010 at around 7pm, I only had a couple of cigarettes left. I decided at that time it was really had to be my last cigs, so I browse in the internet and found whyquit site. I started to read the story, and I still wanted to finish the cigarettes I had, even I was so scared. Around 4.30AM I finished my last stick of cigarettes. I read a lot of article in whyquit that night and even download the mp3 file, so I can always listen to it, to remind me that I can do it, and to educate me the things I need to know when I quit.
Until this day, I am still nicotine free, and I thank God I found this whyquit. Because of this site, make my quit easier (i don't really have any hard withdrawal, except my sleep problem), and make me know that what I fight for is only a puff...and I will never take another puff again...BTW- Now my heart beat is getting normal again.... Thank you for reading.