Day 13 of no nicotine after 20 years of about 25 a day (40 by the end). I am so thankful for the threads and postings on this site. I am 17 weeks pregnant with my second child. Nothing is as important as NEVER taking another puff....I am so scattered and tired but for the first time in my adult life I can see a future without nicotine-shame (and maybe even with some self-pride). By the time I had my last cigarette I was thinking about them whenever I was awake - the only time the nagging in my head stopped was when I was actually smoking one... to shut the voice up I would have more and more. So one day at a time. I NEVER thought I would be able to achieve this. Was sure I was doomed to self loathing and addiction-induced poverty and imminent cancer and am still in a daze that I have come this far.