My official quit date was July 4th--I made it a true Independence Day and the funny thing is I didn't even plan it all out that way. I'd woke up that morning low on cigarettes and feeling cranky already because I hadn't been smoking much at all for the previous 2 days as I'd been low on money. On July 4th I was almost out of cigs and I knew I was going to have to scrape together change, including pennies, for a pack of cigs; I wasn't looking forward to the inevitable embarrassment coming from bringing a stack of pennies into the store. Plenty of you remember something like that, I'm sure.
Somehow I came to the thought, What if I made this a real Independence Day? At first I thought no, I can't. In my memories were all my failed past attempts when I tried nicotine replacement products. My line of thinking was this: I failed even using those products and right now I cannot afford those. How could I ever make it cold turkey? Still, I googled for 'quit smoking cold turkey' and blessedly got here. Of course it makes so much sense now! I wasn't a failure at all--my previous tries with nicotine replacement or cutting down were keeping my body in a constant state of miserable withdrawal. My body wasn't being allowed to complete the withdrawal process and heal itself.
The first day was rough--had just about every symptom imaginable and the entire day was one long crave episode. *Laughing* Luckily, we recently got a kitten who loves attention; every time I felt like I couldn't stand it anymore, I reached out to give him pets and cuddles. When the kitten went to sleep, I came here and read the articles for strength.
I read that I may have trouble sleeping, but oddly enough if anything I was more tired as though the act of not smoking was sapping every bit of energy away from me.
Today I actually feel ok. Last night I had the smoking dream and you know what? I felt ashamed of myself in the dream for giving in and ruining my quit, but after I woke up was proud with myself because it was only a dream. I'm still a non-smoker! I take this as a good healing sign.
Thank you for accepting me and for listening.