I am so excited to be posting here. First let me say that I had decided to quit smoking cold turkey on my own. I had done it before, and I knew that the first 72 hours were crazy. On my day 2 I began losing my resolve so (while at work) I google’d quitting smoking and found this site. I read and read and read, until I had a headache from staring at the screen. At the end of the day I knew that I could never take another puff again. . .
Both of my parents were smokers. They smoked in the house, in the car, outside, EVERYWHERE, and ALL THE TIME. I can remember begging them to quit. In elementary school I learned that cigarettes kill you, and I constantly cried and screamed for them to stop smoking. I couldn’t understand why they couldn’t just put them down and that be the end of it? Well my hatred of cigarettes didn’t last very long. I can remember being 8 years old and stealing them from my mothers purse. I hated the way that they smelled so I would never light them, but that didn’t stop me from imitating her smoking moves in the mirror and imagining the mysterious and sexy adult woman I would be with my cigarettes.
From there I left them alone for a long time. All up until my sophomore year of high school. My step sister came to live with us, and she smoked. Competition was very heavy between us because we were only a year apart, and both used to being the only child. When I saw her smoking I was extremely jealous. She was stealing that mysterious and sexy image that I had in my head, and I wasn’t going to let that happen. That day I saw her smoking at the bus stop I demanding that she give me one. She did…and that began what was to be my 10 year smoking habit.
It really disgusting when I think about it. I am only 25 years old and I have been killing myself for 10 years. I have always been the prettiest girl in class and the smartest girl as well. I would be lying if I said I didn’t have a massive ego. I pride myself on living a good life and doing all things the “right” way. Now I have had to face the fact that this little enjoyment of mine is a full blown addiction. I read another woman’s first post, and she said that she looked down at the heavy smokers because she only smoked half a pack a day. I recognized the addict in me for the first time that day and I was truly repulsed at what I have allowed myself to become.
I am thankful for this site for saving my life and making this the easiest quit I’ve ever had. I am taking it a day at a time and I can hear the little girl in the back of my mind…..I’m sure she will make sure that I never take another puff again! J
I stopped smoking on Tue, 6 Jul 2010 it has been 1 week, 6 days, 12 hours, 16 minutes and 3 seconds since I quit. I have saved $ 57.96 by choosing not to smoke 162 cigarettes. More importantly, I’ve saved 1 day, 5 hours and 43 minutes of my life!