I smoked up to 40 roll ups (hand rolled cigs) every day for the past 23 years. I was so ‘committed’ to my addiction I used to scrape dark brown nicotine stains from my fingers every day or so, & would often wake up at 2am and have to smoke to get back to sleep again. I had convinced myself that I ‘loved’ to smoke (I was of course just totally addicted), but despite lavishing ever increasing amounts of time, money and devotion to my ‘beloved’ roll ups, I finally decided they weren't being too kind to me & enough was enough.
I quit at 2am on February 9th (yep, after one of my inter-sleep cigarettes!) – I wish I could say it’s been easy, It hasn’t - I’ve been miserable at times! (particularly during the first week) and I have felt ill at times (probably psychological – who knows?) But - I have to say that this time around, thanks in part to being educated & by reading your posts, it has been bearable! A major change for me has been the knowledge of why I am going through bizarre emotions & discomforts, and realising that It’s just a process that everyone must go through, and (thankfully) it wont last forever!
I’m happy to say that even after being such a highly ‘committed’ smoker, things are slowly but surely getting much easier, which deep down I doubted would ever happen. Now after nearly a month I’m thinking less & less about those “lovely” roll ups, and actually starting to really enjoy the fist glimpses of my new life as a non smoker. I still have some tough moments when my old junkie thinking makes the odd appearance, but I can silence those thoughts pretty quick now, and it is true what everyone says, it really does get easier!
I wanted to say a big thanks to everyone who contributes to this site, I know for sure that it has helped by preparing me, & motivating me, Some of the threads & the articles have made me quite emotional at times, making me laugh and cry, but that is what is so brilliant about this site is the honest ‘warts & all’ approach to quitting. And it (constantly!) drums home the simple and only way to guarantee success – never take another puff!
Thanks everyone, so far really is so good, I have a long way to go, so I will definitely be back to read more of your posts as they have helped me enormously.
Free for 3W 6D 19h 46m, Saving me £63.85 by not smoking another 834 cigarettes.