My first post - Day 9
Hello everyone, I had my last puff two Sundays ago at 9pm. I’d heard the day before that someone I know is very ill because of smoking cigarettes, and I thought “This has got to stop, it’s so stupid, risky, unfair on my children, it’s just madness to carry on smoking”. I have been a nicotine addict for 17 years, and given up many times (and got addicted to NRT), always going back to it after thinking I could smoke just one or for a short time. I used to say to myself I’ll smoke for 10 years, and if I quit then I’ll still be fairly young, but that never happened, even having kids didn’t stop me. I’ve read loads on this forum since I found it last week, and realised some of the common lies I was telling myself as a nicotine addict – it’s amazing the denial we can be in! I’m learning so much about the nature of addiction, and how it deceives you.
Anyway, my quit so far. First three days I felt deep sadness and loss, leaving a friend I had had for so long. Wobbly too at first, not at all sure I was going to really do this. And worried about the long term future of quitting. I had a real sense of just keeping my head down and concentrating on the next small step in front of me. I was very uncommunicative for a few days, and felt it was a very solemn and serious thing I was doing, that needed me to be single-minded. Worst day for irritability was day 7 which happened to be a weekend, craves have not been as bad as I expected. Something that helps a lot, that I never tried before, is still going out into the garden as before, but without a cigarette now, and enjoying the fresh air & surroundings & a peaceful break. Before I used to think it best to give this up too as it was my smoking place, but now I see it’s better to reclaim it as something nice and beneficial to do.
There’s so much I could write, I’m finding life without nicotine so much better, with so many benefits, and I feel much more positive about the future, and more determined this will be my last quit, than I thought possible on day one.
Thanks for reading, keep at it, one day, one hour, one minute at a time.
Nicotine free for 9 days, 11 hours and 55 mins & it feels great!