Coral - Free and Healing for Three Days, 23 Hours and 57
Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 9 Hours, by avoiding the use of 120
nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $34.79. Wait, 120 cigarettes?
$34.79 in just over three days? I really fooled myself thinking I only smoked
three packs a week that only cost me $16, with the three pack deal down at the
gas station. That’s what I told myself, that’s what I told those who asked me
(doctors etc.). Sad part is I made
myself believe it.
I started smoking when I was 14, became a regular smoker
when I got my first job at 15, I then smoked at least a pack a day until I
turned 24. I met my now ex husband in college when I was 23 and he detested
smoking. He put up with it for a while then started really nagging me to quit.
When I didn’t he started taking my cigarettes and destroying them. Boy was I
mad! I finally gave in and quit smoking for HIM. It was so hard; I had no tools
and no education about the addiction. My ex’s solution to my craves was for me to go
upstairs where we were remodeling our home and throw a hammer at the old walls
we were tearing down. I did that over and over again, until the old plaster was
gone. Shortly after that we decided to get married. I remember sneaking a smoke in the bathroom waiting
for the ceremony to start. After the wedding I was sneaking a few smokes my neighbor
shared with me when my ex was not home.
Two months after we were married I learned I was pregnant
and this time I was quitting for the baby. This time is wasn’t quite as
difficult and I managed to go through the pregnancy smoke free. Even after my
son was born I became accustomed to not smoking and stayed smoke free for the
next 6 years. I started becoming unhappy with my marriage and once again
started sneaking cigarettes whenever the opportunity presented itself. Then
when we became separated I went out and bought my own cigarettes and started
smoking again even though it tasted horrible, it burned and hurt like crazy,
made me dizzy and nauseated, I was going
to show my ex he can’t stop me anymore. I was smoking a pack a day in no time
flat. I look back and see who I was hurting the most and that was ME.
Last week I caught a cold and normally I don’t get a lot of congestion, just a sore throat and feeling “ill” is my norm. This time was very different, my lungs were congested, when I coughed or laughed it hurt badly. It didn’t stop me from smoking, but when I did it was painful. I thought to myself, maybe this would be a good time to quit. It was a sudden decision with zero planning. While I was contemplating this idea I started looking online and found this website and started reading the articles Joe put up and my resolve became even stronger. I still had two packs of cigarettes left that were not opened and I hated the idea of wasting them, but I kept reading and was lead to a section where Joe says to destroy all smoking items immediately. I did it, they were gone. So here I am into day four, relearning to do things without smoking. My craves are not terrible, and I do remember that feeling of freedom from smoking back when my son was small. A part of me really missed that, but it was buried deep until I got this cold. I am still coughing but slowly getting better. I think my story drives home the point that you cannot quit for other people, or even your unborn child. You have to do it for YOU! I never get tired of hearing the words “Never take another puff”. Thank you Joe, you are a blessing. I know it won’t be easy, but thanks to you I am armed with information I did not have before.