Hi, my name is Cryan and I'm a nicotine addict/junkie. I smoked my last cigarette on 2/23/12 at about 7:45am. That morning I was on my way to work but had been sick with a cold all week.
I lit that last cig but put it out after taking about 2 hits (and yes, I thought "man I'm wasting a cigarette") because I could feel that the cold was going to move to my chest and the coughing would start.
I felt too bad to stay at work, went home and went to bed. Got up around 7:00pm. WOW, had it really been almost 12 hours without a smoke? Can I keep this up? Long story short, yes I can.
Right then and there I made a decision to NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF.
Of course I've had my moments. For me days 3 and 5 were the hardest. Day 3 I was starting to feel better from the cold and was doing some cleaning around the house to keep my hands busy and I burst
into tears thinking about the loss of my beloved cigarettes and how we'd never be together again. That happened 4 more times that day but I got through it. Day 5, I don't know what triggered it but I had anxiety
like I've never had before. I felt like my shoulders were up around my ears and they wouldn't go down. My husband works out of town during the week and I couldn't go home to that empty house. I went to
a non-smoking friends house until I felt strong enough to go home, fed my dog and went to bed. I felt much better the next day!
After that anxiety attack I Googled "what to expect on your first week of quitting smoking" and I found whyquit.com. This site has been the best thing that could have happened. I started reading and reading
and found that what I was going through was normal. When I read The Laws of Addiction I thought what a simple concept yet so hard for the junkie mind to wrap itself around. Again, this site has been
such a blessing, I come here and read, read, read.
A little more about me. I'm 53, been smoking approx. 30 years. I'm married and have 2 kids in their 20's neither of whom smoke thank goodness. You know that saying If you can't be a good example,
then you'll just have to be a horrible warning? I hope my smoking was a horrible warning to them. My husband quit smoking 2 years ago and has been my biggest supporter and cheer leader. I'm just sorry
that I couldn't have been more support for him during his quit.
Thank you to everyone who puts in time and effort to this site. The resources are invaluable and I will refer anyone who is even remotely thinking about quitting here.
Happy Sunday and thanks for having me,