hello fellow quitters this is my first post with ntap in mind it wont be my last. nicotine has always been in my life probably since my conception in 1966. my first taste was chewing tobacco then on to smoking like my parents. i started when i was 11. i quit once before but did not keep vigilant and lost sight of the fact that nicotine dependancy is an addiction. i am also an alcoholic and at the present i am sober and have been for a couple of months. i am no stranger to addiction and i know with all my heart that one slip up and i will be back full bore nicotine user. i have been spending at least an hour a day on freedom or why quit since my first full day of not chewing/smoking. i found freedom through my wifes knowledge of yuku and i applied and was turned down the first time only because i did not read the directions which are plain and simple enough but well..... ok i threw a temper tantrum. i am really glad i dont have to look far for people who are either in the same place as me or are long time ex smokers. i read someone elses first posts and saw that they ended four or five days ago. this is kind of scairy for me mainly because i am afraid i wont stay loyal to myself like ive let myself down so many times before. i love the simple fact that to stay off nicotine all i have to do is never take another puff or in my case get nicotine any other way. im over the major heebie jeebies i had the first few days quit. seems like my worse day was day five. its a little easier now but one attitude i need to get rid of is that its so good to be bad. it runs in the family but i dont want it to kill me.