I have been thinking about posting here for about 3 days now. Don't know why I'm so tentative - normally I'm full speed ahead! I have been a smoker off and on since I was 13 years old. I am now almost 53. I have always thought cold turkey was the only way to go - nice to be validated. I used to jokingly say that it is easy to quit - I've done it dozens of times! I am over my first week, and I can tell my body's metabolism is changing. I did not think it would be that big a deal because I only smoked 5-10 cigarettes a day - but I was just fooling myself, rationalizing and justifying. It is really amazing how much better I feel and I smell so much better too!!! I am interested in all the physiological changes that are happening and worried about my weight - I'm weighing 3 pounds more in just one week and that is a bit depressing. I will not give up though - just going to keep exercising and eating right and I'm sure my metabolism will stabilize again soon.
I was a closet smoker - only my immediate family knew I smoked - so I won't be getting support from co-workers or friends. I am hoping to get a little support here, and of course, my two daughters are great and so proud of me. My husband is still a smoker, though, and I think he is finding it hard to be happy for me. Of course, I want him to quit too, but that is not my battle to fight. In the last 20 years or so, I have been so ashamed to be a smoker. It really brings out the point that it is an addiction. I feel so good knowing that I don't have to hide anything; I don't have to plan when I will have my next smoke so I don't get caught.
Today I am feeling pretty emotional. On the edge of tears at the drop of a hat, but that's okay. I am writing every day and counting how many days I've been nicotine free. My quit date is August 7, 2012. Feels good to say that!