This is my first post, so I hope I'm in the right thread! Thank you so much for this incredible collection of essays, books, videos, and support! I have been nicotine free for six days now, you have no idea how happy it makes me to type those words :) All my adult life up to now has had a background revolving door of smoking, nicotine gum, guilt, secret smoking, cold turkey when pregnant and slipping back into it once the babies grew up a bit, and trying out prescribed anti-smoking drugs, NRT programmes, and relapsing, and chewing gum at work and smoking at home. I have been carrying around this nicotine addiction for over thirty years. And feeling even more pathetic about smoking as I work in a medical profession and "should know better". Smoking does nothing for self-esteem! This is the first support forum I've found which tackles every single aspect of nicotine, smoking, and every single aspect of stopping using nicotine, in a completely honest way, so I had no excuses left not to stop. Thanks to all the explanations of how nicotine affects the brain, I completely understand how deep the rabbit hole of addiction goes, and there is nowhere left to hide, all the happy memories of fun times with nicotine are an illusion, and this has given me the strength of mind to shoo that fluffy trixster of a rabbit out of the burrows of my brain once and for all. THANK YOU!!! I will never smoke again, I will never chew nicotine gum again, it's not a smooth ride, but it's getting less bumpy every day, hurray!