I'm 44 and smoked since I was 12 years old where I would use my dinner money to purchase my fixes. I've had 3 children and smoked through my pregnancies too. I was the worse kind of smoker ever.
About 5 years ago I decided to quit (or rather cut down) so decided to roll my own cigarettes thinking that the stronger they were the less I would smoke... WRONG! I was now smoking approx 40-50 per day one after another. I would light one after another and even start to crave another as I was putting one out. I wasn't getting the 'satisfaction' feeling from any cigarette that I was smoking like that first morning one. I was like a bum, cigarette ash would fall on my clothes, on the couch etc and it wouldnt bother me. Now that makes me sound dog rough but I am a 'respectable' business owner who to the outside world "looks after herself"
Then.... ten days ago I had the worst possible cough and cold you could imagine. The type where your coughing so hard you feel as though your insides may end up coming through your mouth. Did this deter me from smoking? No... I would FORCE myself to smoke between coughing . Then the nausea set in where I was smoking and coughing and then gagging with nausea at each pull of the cigarette
That was ten days ago and I haven't smoked since! No aids just good old fashioned cold turkey.
BOY AM I GLAD I FOUND THIS SITE!
There has been more than a few occasions since that Ive wondered what a cigarette would feel like... only one.... just one...just one puff...etc a kind of bargaining but NO Ive resisted the urge and largely down to following this forum and reading the wealth of info on this site I now see it for what it is.
I am now a completely different person. I have energy that I never knew I had. I don't feel dirty/grubby/smoky. I don't worry about going visiting places that don't allow smoking. Im no longer in a rush to leave places/friends/family that dont smoke. My fingers are no longer nicotine stained. My skin now glows instead of looking deathly ashy. I wake up in the mornings now rearing to go instead of needing 5 cigarettes and a pot of tea before I can even get dressed! My house smells fresh... I FEEL ALIVE! I FEEL PROUD!
To any smoker lurking these boards - If you can remember the scene in the The Wizard of Oz where everything turns from black and white to colour? Well that's how my life has changed the past 10 days... The world is now in Tecnicolor and I feel bloody great!
No its not all easy and plain sailing BUT the good feelings FAR outweigh the bad.