imageAnyone thinking of throwing away their quit, PLEASE take notice of the 7th paragraph of Joels post, I am living proof that it does work.....on Friday last I was so fed up, I was ready to throw in the towel and reach for the cigarettes, I thought I did'nt care about being quit anymore, or at least I thought I did'nt care, some part of me must've cared enough to want to hang on because I put a post to the effect that I was sinking fast, in my diary, If I am being honest, I was thinking , well if someone see's this here it must be an omen, because if I'd put out an S.O.S. someone would definetly have seen it, whereas putting it in my diary it may have been missed !!!! so in my illogical way of thinking that day, I suppose a part of me was wanting help and the junkie part of me was saying, well if no one see's this then too bad I tried, so now I'll smoke.....Looking back that was pure junkie thinking.
To get to the point though, I recieved help advice and support from every direction, thank God for the people here who care, because if it were'nt for them I would have felt wretched today, smelly, guilty, the works, never knowing wether I would ever be stong enough to quit again.......instead though I am proud, I got over what seemed to be an insurmountable hurdle, I not only kept my quit, but I have the most fantastic sense of wellbeing I have ever felt for I dont know how many years, and to think this was all waiting for me, just around the corner, and if I had relapsed Friday I would never have known how good it is possible to feel.
Long winded story? maybe, but my point is please let the people here help if you reach a stage where you cant help yourself.
Love naymor xxxx