In response to your rhetorical question - "You are getting smarter." Will power may keep you off the nicotine when that is all that you have available to you, but those who remain nicotine free learn how to live with their addiction instead of fighting against it.

There is this fallacy that when you quit smoking you are constantly fighting the urge to run out to buy a pack of cigarettes so that you blissfully suck them in one after another and all will be better again. If that were the case then why did you quit? Cigarette smoke is a very efficient nicotine delivery vehicle. Within seconds of your first puff nicotine is delivered to the brain to relieve your nicotine withdrawl. However, along with that unearned dopamine rush comes life stealing carbon monoxide and a plethora of chemical compounds that you would not otherwise imagine pumping into your blood stream but for the sake of relieving withdrawl.

You don't want to smoke. You want relief from withdrawl. After so many years of pumping your body full of cigarette smoke and nicotine it is understandable that you are going through a period of readjustment. It will get better. Follow the suggestions on whyquit.com for new members. Do what you can to maintain a stable blood sugar level. Take walks to feed your body life giving oxygen. You are healing and this discomfort will pass.

Be grateful that after so many years of smoking you are still able to breathe. Be grateful that you had the courage to quit. Be grateful for having found whyquit.com. Be grateful that an addict has a place to come where people will stand up and cheer for you for having the courage to say "I will never take another puff."

Joseph
Gold x2
I will not smoke today either.