Welcome, Caravan, and congratulations on your decision to quit. I also was a heavy smoker for more than 40 years and associated everything I did with cigarettes. In the beginning just try to go one day at a time so you don't get overwhelmed and keep reading as much as you can on this website for inspiration. It's not easy. I'm still going one day at a time but most of them are not endless like in the beginning, and it is slowly starting to get better each day. Hang in there.
Liz - Free and Healing for One Month, Twenty Four Days, 19 Hours and 36 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 7 Days and 8 Hours, by avoiding the use of 2113 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $423.46.