Thank you for the words of wisdom John. I have read so many wonderful posts on this site and many from both you and Marty - Gold several times over.
One thing really struck me about your mention of 'quiet minds where an amazing sense of calm once again rules' - truly I felt that once on a quit I was not able to sustain. On the list I wrote to myself on the first hour of my quit, one of my reasons was 'So I can feel again that strange sense of peacefulness and contentment that I have felt when I was clean from this hideous addiction.'
Every moment I can feel that outweighs those moments I feel the tension, and I know the tension will continue to subside.
I love this site. It is an invaluable service to so many. Thank you to all who wrote to me here today on my first post.
pat