Ok tough day here with pretty minor stressor considering some of the hard balls life can throw.
Got lied to about a service I had paid for and then got jerked around and condescended to by a local customer service rep, which lead to a need to contact an national customer service rep for this large retail chain.
Overall minor stuff but the adrenaline of the conflict kicked in and I found myself breathing heavily and wanting a cigarette really badly. Kind of hit me out of the blue. Old conditioned responses. Ridiculous since overall my quit has been going so smoothly. And I am past 2 weeks free, at day 17 today.
Really brings it home to me how very deep this conditioning goes and how I have to just go through the discomfort of these times when they do arise. Felt like my very cells were screaming.
Kept thinking, 'ok, what good would it possibly do to smoke? How in the world would that help in any way?' Knew the answer - no good whatsoever.
Remembered all those times when anger and frustration hit and I would go and chainsmoke until I calmed down.
Did some deep breathing, got busy and did the dishes and some other cleaning and drank some water. Feeling somewhat better now, still a bit lightheaded - I'm probably not used to all this oxygen in combination with adrenaline!
Oh well, tomorrow will be better and today will get better too.
NTAP...NTAP...NTAP
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