Hi Paula!
First off, welcome to freedom. Not just the site, but true freedom from within. I would like to congratulate you on your quit. I know that it's tough to get through, and I'm sure we can all relate to your original post. Alot of the initial quit process is about overcoming the triggers and finding other ways to get by it. Yes, you may feel as if you deserve that smoke, but guess what? 1=all, so if you want to have that smoke, go ahead, but know that there will be more and more and more and you will be right back to where you left off. Sometimes more so. You've overcome the worst part. This part is easy. You're re-training your mind to live how you are supposed to live... without a cig hanging out of your mouth. It takes some getting used to, but you can do it. I know you can, because you're doing it now!
Here are a couple good reads I like to pass along
Keep your chin up, keep reading, and NTAP!
Beth - 149 days