I woke up this morning feeling.... I was about to write not so good but If I am to be completely honest I should really say horrible. I had a really bad night sleep again and then to top it off my 2 year old woke me up twice. So it all really started at about 2am in the morning my intense craving for a smoke that is. My children waking me up in the middle of the night always followed a cigarette.
I think the first thing my children heard from me this morning was just shouting, I find this the hardest part of my mood swings because my children seem to be the one's who suffer the most and they are too young to understand that mum is being a nut case because she is trying to stop smoking....(I can be so mean to them)

So whats the good news then? well my brain has being trying to convince me that a cig will make me feel better. I have chosen not to listen.. Thankyou so so so much Karen and Joe j reading you messages this morning was just what I needed It made me into a crying mess for a while but I think a good cry was all I needed.

Anyway Im off to make a mends with my kiddies, lots of fresh smelling hugs and kisses I think.

Caron 11 days 19hrs