You're very welcome Shay. Regarding your comment:
Since I will be up a creek anyway if I don't find a new job soon, might as well make the search easier while smoking. I could just quit again a couple weeks into my new job.
Well, that sounds like classic Junkie thinking to me, Shay. Oh, and I like how you called it that "committee in your head" ... that's something that every addict experiences. It's a bargaining that goes back and forth between our inner-junkie (in this case, "the Nicodemon") and our rational "true" self. I would recommend reading OBob's: Last line of defense - not today! if you haven't already. This thread reminds us that WE have the final say when it comes to control of our bodies and our behavior. We don't NEED to do what our inner-junkie tells us to do, not any more, cause as long as we Never Take Another Puff, we are "on this side of the fence". We have the key to our addiction. WE have control. That's what Freedom is all about, Shay. Gaining control. No longer being a slave to our inner-junkie's wants and desires but rather recognizing our true needs and doing what we need to do to make ourselves happy.
I know that you have recognized this thought to quit later as a junkie thought, otherwise you wouldn't have come here and asked about it. Now all you need to do is to practice Embracing those craves and reminding yourself that NOW is as good a time as any to take back your life, and that, since you have already removed nicotine from your body, the "hard part" is over, and there is no point in flushing all that success down the toilet now. You can do this Shay...you ARE doing this. kkeep on keepin on, and keepin on reading here and posting for help as needeed. It works, believe me...
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