Have you ever?
As I write this I have big tears in my eyes and they are definately going to spill right on out. This is a thread I have not read before and for me it is the most powerful one I have read thus far. I am not sure why I am having such a reaction to it but it is one that without a doubt will be with me forever. Reading through the posts I see myself in each of them and it just breaks my heart to realize the lengths I would go in order to feed my addiction.
I think one of the worst for me is dropping a cigarette while driving down the freeway during heavy traffic and bending over to do the "sramble" to get it before it sets my carpet on fire and looking up to realize that I am about to hit a rather large semi head on. I think my angel was right there with me because the semi pulled to his right while I swerved back to my own lane just in time.(If one of you is the trucker I almost drove into I am very sorry, you will no doubt remember me.....it was really close) I swore to myself I was never going to smoke again, I got home, ran the pack of cigarettes under my kitchen sink and then dropped them in the garbage where they stayed until later that night when I was trying to figure out the best way to dry them so I could feed my addiction.
I am so happy to be here with all of you and to know that as long as I never take another puff I will never be that person I was again. Grace...........I will be green on Friday the 13 at 7:45