I LOVE this post. I really needed to read this to remind me of why I've been going through what I have for the last 9 days. Today was tough. I've been bargaining with myself all day (as described in one of the articles I read). You know, telling myself "Just one, it' won't hurt. You can start over. You made it this far, you can go farther tomorrow." I didn't let my junkie thoughts win, but it sure has been hard. Then, I read this and remembered exactly why I quit. Well, here's a couple of choice disgusting things I've done:
Have you ever dropped your cigarettes in the rain and to dry them out microwaved them? I have. I'm an addict.
Have you ever dug through someone elses ashtray for a half smoked cigarette? I have. I'm an addict.
Have you ever lied to your significant other so many times about smoking that you just decided he wasn't as important as smoking - you'd rather live your life without being questioned constantly about smoking - oh, and by the way, not deal with the fact that he loved you? I have. I'm an addict.
Have you ever cut the tips off of cigarettes that weren't "your brand" to get a better nic hit? I have. I'm an addict.
Man, this makes me sick. These last couple of days have been really tough and I've felt pretty low, but not as low as I did during the times mentioned above.
Thanks!
Sabrina
Free and Healing for Nine Days, 9 Hours and 13 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 11 Hours, by avoiding the use of 141 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $24.64.