Yes I too have:
  • re-rolled the re-rolls
  • picked ends out of the trash/ garden/ ashtray
  • burnt holes in my clothes
  • smoked in the toilet of bars because I did not want friends to know I had relapsed

And probably the meanest and worst of all, I have felt relief at a friends relapse!!! so I would not have to smoke alone or lose the friendship, in effect wishing more years of misery upon them. Not because I am naturally a horrible persone, but because I'm an addict.