I just read through this entire thread... all 199 postings, and couldn't resist being the 200th, (unless someone squeaks in before I can hit send)
I too related to many of these things that we addicts have done... so here's my 2 cents:
Have you ever climbed up to the top of a really steep hill many times a day to have a cigarette because that's the only place you were 'allowed' to smoke at camp? Then, years later, at that same camp, after lying on the application to be a counsellor
by saying that you don't smoke, have you ever 'volunteered' to 'supervise' the campers while they go for their smoke? Have you ever bummed cigarettes off the campers and then begged them not to tell the camp director that you were smoking too? I have, (and it was a Christian camp)... because I am an addict!
Have you ever taken the pain of going outside for a smoke after having surgery? I have, I found out I was pregnant, and so naturally I quit... only to discover it was ectopic and needed to be removed. Great excuse to relaspe, despite the pain of getting up and down off the couch where I was recovering, I went out for my fix... why the heck not, I wasn't pregnant anymore, and I am an addict!
Have you ever quit smoking, and made yourself cry saying that you were missing your sister (she died in 1997) just so you could justify having a smoke without people thinking you were weak... "i can understand why she needs to smoke, the loss of her sister was terrible" -- true, but now I know there is no excuse to relapse... but I didn't then, I am an addict.
There are so many more, they have all been said. But the reminder of what I was, and where I came from will ensure that I will never go back. I have to say, this is by far my favourite thread, not to mention the most inspirational! I will visit often.
Kisses,
Christy xx
I have been quit for 2 Months, 1 Week, 1 Day, 1 hour, 30 minutes and 50 seconds (69 days). I have saved $357.74 by not smoking 966 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 8 hours and 30 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 2005-04-11 10:00 PM