Have you ever been babysitting for your 6 month old neice and you decided you could not take the withdrawal anymore so you run outside and have a quick smoke while she sleeps but your neice wakes up and begins crying and screaming and you still smoke the cigarette as quickly as you can before going back in and holding her?
I have! I'm an addict! ...remembering this literally brings tears to my eyes and i am so ashamed.
I have been nic free for 3 months.