Have you ever tried to time your nicotine fixes at 90 minutes before your infant would be wanting to breastfeed, telling yourself that that way, most of the nicotine would be gone from your body? Of course, you conveniently overlooked the fact that because your infant was also used to getting nicotine, she would start crying well ahead of her "scheduled" fix via mother's milk? Who were you fooling?

Did you ever look at a pregnant woman smoking and think "that's horrible, when I get pregnant, I'll quit". And then you did get pregnant, but didn't quit? Twice?

Did you ever convince yourself you no longer liked or loved someone because you could not smoke around that person without drowning in shame?

Did you ever prefer to be with people only because you could smoke - but you had to convince yourself you actually prefered their company to that of non-smokers - otherwise none of it made any sense? Mmmm, junkie thinking...

Did you ever just miss out on so many good times with people you love because you wanted to be able to smoke?

Did you ever notice there is no end to the "did you ever's"? I've done all that I've written, and probably 99% of what has been written by other posters here, because I've been addicted to nicotine for the past 20 years.

NTAP

An excellent thread for driving home the point on what addiction will make you do. Recommended reading from start to finish.