I am guilty of all three factors of relapse!
(1) rewriting the law of addiction
I have the strength to stick to a couple of cigarettes a day or just smoke at the weekend (yeah right)
(2) an excuse
Smoking will help me lose weight (sure) I am going through a traumatic time right now (cigarettes make it all better)
(3) a vague memory
I can stop any time...I have done it before...no problem! (It's HELL!!!!)
I seem to have 'forgotten' that I was NEVER able to stick to just a few cigarettes...EVERY SINGLE TIME I started smoking again I very quickly worked my way up to 20 a day and smoking NEVER helped me lose weight...and every time I attempted to quit I went to hell and back and I did not last long at all before I started again!
It's interesting to look back and see how often I have deceived myself....scary
thank you for posting this...