Thank you Zep!
Haven't posted in quiet some time, in constant competion for computer time with kids and spouse. Feeling very good about my quit I yeild to them.
Out of the blue yesterday I found myself covinced that I could handle "one...just one". I was scheming, planning for about 3 hours, maybe longer, this went on. I even selected the smoker I was going to bum from, a person who wouldn't tell. The only reason I didn't smoke was because of my former closet smoker mentality. The opportunity never presented itself to discretely hit him up. Dumb luck. Out of frustration I gave up! Packed up my tools, came home, logged on, and here it was...excactly what I needed to read. Couldn't find the words yesterday...ashamed I guess for even entertaining the idea. It's dominated my thoughts and I am sill pretty shook up...I'm scared and will not let go of that fear...it'll keep me honest
Happy to report I am still smoke free and will be green next Monday!
Kristin
3 weeks and 2 days