Wow! Am I glad I ran into this article! I have felt like I've been walking through a never-ending tunnel, paranoid that a freight train is going to come up behind me. The last two days have been a bit rough due to the introduction of some work-related stress. However, I am working hard to remain at least hopeful, if not positive along the way. I know from reading that experiencing triggers actually helps me to reframe them in my subconcious, thus avoiding the same trigger experience in the future. And I think that's pretty cool.
This article just did it for me today, though. As I wonder why I am going through all of these feelings and emotions, most of which I numbed with an unfriendly drug in the past, this article put all of those icky things, stupid things, crazy things I did as an active smoker - things like drive through a blizzard or ice storm to get a pack of smokes - in the forefront that make me think: What was I thinking!?!
I love that the freedom I have discovered allows me to be free of so many things - like making sure I have enough to last wherever I might be going, or fear that my ashtry is going to burn my house down if I don't drown it with water before I leave, or the hacking that would wake me up in the middle of the night.
Thanks for the reminder that this toxic friend was no friend at all as I get through one day at a time!
Laura
6 days, 17 hours, 38 minutes and 53 seconds smoke free. 202 cigarettes not smoked. $44.62 and 1 day, 13 hours of my life saved.