Hi Angela, hang in there it does get better, Try to take some time and walk, get out feel the real you. It's right there, it will get better. I was right where you are not that long ago. Mary - Free and Healing for One Month, One Day, 17 Hours and 25 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 2 Days and 1 Hour, by avoiding the use of 595 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $126.49.