Thanks all....I couldnt have made it without everybody here and all the inspiration available.
My original post got me thinkin a little. My written words dont always come across exactly how I'm feelin. I am turning the corner into calmness and comfort and I'm afraid of using those terms right now because I am still "thinking" about the change I made going nicotine free. However infrequent this time is, maybe10 minutes, it is unlike the beginning where it was a huge struggle all day long. The chatter has quieted significantly and almost non-existent. So in relative terms I have achieved comfort in relation to a new person just starting out. In terms of the GOLD club I;m still a newbie and dont know what I'm talkin about.
Maybe it would be a good thing to hang onto these 10 minutes a day of thinking about smoking as a reminder of the road I have traveled? Maybe the ultimate goal shouldn't be 100% comfort but 99% just to serve as a measuring stick as to how far you have come.
I know I can never cross the goal line and yell "victory" cause the law of addiction is now a big part of me and always will be.
My intent is to give back to this group and help those who have helped me along the way and anybody just starting out.
Thanks again for all your support!