Hi JD, I know exactly what you are talking about. I went through the same thing. I was really fired up to hit GREEN, but after I got there I sort of fell apart. Spent a few days crying image and feeling very down. I didn't want to smoke, but I wasn't happy either. The OBob classic that Robin referred you to explains a lot of it.
For me I think it was coming face-to-face with the thought of success. Up to then there was always the possibility of relapse, but once I hit GREEN I knew I was really serious this time. There was no going back. I was really never going to take another puff. That's what scared me. I was really going to go it alone. No soother, no comforter, NO NICOTINE. image If it wasn't for everything I learned here and all the support from newbies and oldies alike, I don't know if I would have kept my quit. But many oldies talked about the feeling of calm that comes after a while, and I wanted that. I had been without nicotine long enough to feel the difference, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally too. I knew my inner junkie was giving it a last desperate shot, but I also knew I wasn't going to listen. I kept moving forward one day at a time, that mood gradually lifted, and here I am 4 days from double GREEN and feeling strong and excited about my quit. Hang in there JD. 1 month and 3 days is a wonderful accomplishment and something to be very proud of. Your sense of satisfaction will return and you'll be happy you NTAP!
Ione
I have been quit for 1 Month, 3 Weeks, 6 Days, 21 hours, 21 minutes and 21 seconds (55 days). I have saved $357.68 by not smoking 894 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 2 hours and 30 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 1/6/2007 12:01 AM