Bill Thank you so much I read the article and it is me to a tee. Hopefully it will help me accept sooner than later and move on. Parts of me must accept already as I tell people I quit smoking not that I am quitting. I also told a new doctor a few days ago that I didn't smoke. Maybe thats what triggered this whole thing, my actually saying out loud that I don't smoke. Anyways I do appreciate the encouragement Thanks Again!!!!!