Hey, Andi -
It's very inspiring that you are at 51 days. I'm 41 years old and smoked 22 years, and I find it really motivating that such a huge improvement in our lives is something in our control.
Also, if you hadn't honestly shared your experience, you wouldn't have drawn out the wisdom and encouragement of the other members -- and we all benefit from reading that.
Like Gump said in message 20 in your journal - we're either feeding our addiction every thirty minutes or we're moving on from that entirely - and that is a transition, but you've got 51 days and you know to NTAP and you can come read for inspiration (here's something handy now).
Keep going! Nancy - 85 days