Thank you so much to the supportive folks here!!!!
Okay, JoeJ Free is right - I need to post my reasons for quit list in this diary. So here goes:
1. I want to live to see my children have children.
2. I want to be able to PLAY with my kids, not just watch because I don't have the breath to keep up with them.
3. I'm tired of being ashamed all the time - and I have felt so much shame over being a smoker.
4. I'm sick of giving nicotine control over my actions. I am the ultimate control-freak - how did I give up so much for so long??
5. I hate having to try to muffle or disguise my smokers cough at family gatherings.
6. I've got great hair -- but smoke smell makes even gorgeous hair gross.
7. Think of how much disposable income I'll be gaining - that I won't have to dispose of now! And if I CHOOSE to dispose of some of it, I will do so on things that make me happy, not cigarettes that make me sad and sick.
8. I'd love to not have to waste sick days on actually being sick.
9. I've run out of excuses for disappearing from the room to go smoke.
10. Now when I use scented body spray, I'll actually get to smell like it, instead of like smoke.
11. I'm too smart to be a slave to something that makes me feel bad.
12. I know that I am a good and kind person, and I deserve to feel good about myself and have self-esteem. I can never completely have that as a smoker.
There are a million variations of the real reason that I quit - I DO NOT WANT TO BE A SMOKER. I may have to be an addict - can't go back in time now to fix that - but I can be a recovering addict.
One = All
NTAP.
Thank you again, Freedom board.
Happily,
Amy
Living free -- without shame for Twenty Five Days, 21 Hours and 33 Minutes.
466 drug delivery sticks rejected.
1 Day and 14 Hours and $145.83 richer.