Welcome to Freedom Crystal,
You have quite a story. Read here as much as you possibly can. It will supply you with every possible reason not to smoke again. Take care of yourself, and I am glad that you are feeling better.
Kristie - Free and Healing for One Month, Eleven Days, 20 Hours and 16 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 2 Days and 18 Hours, by avoiding the use of 797 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $129.31.