AAARRGGH! Why am I feeling this way after what seems like so long? One minute I'm proud and strong and green. Then POOF I'm a quivering pathetic addict. image All afternoon my inner junkie has been wheedling, cajoling, pouting and generally kicking up a racket. I know better and I'm fighting hard. And I even feel guilty posting this since by now I'm supposed to be positive and happy and never craving and all that stuff. But that is not the way it feels tonight....and if I'm not allowed to whine here, where people understand, then I'm going to go nuts. image I just want so much for this feeling to go away. Because no matter what, I will NTAP...I CAN NOT, WILL NOT GO BACK.
So all that's left to do is tough it out....and drop back to the elemental wisdom of the earliest days of my quit.....these next few MINUTES are doable. I once heard it called "living in the smallest slice of now that you can find"...
Someday, when I'm gold, I'll look back on this post and laugh....
Cindy
I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 3 Days, 8 hours and 23 minutes. I have saved $181.30 by not smoking 1,208 cigarettes. I have saved 4 Days, 4 hours and 40 minutes of my life.