I work for a CPA firm, so I've been just swamped at work because of tax season and haven't been doing a lot of posting....but I've been doing a lot of lurking. Just wanted to post this in my quit diary for posterity. Here on the verge of turning bronze, I'm experiencing some sort of weird "junkie thinking" backlash. NTAP has been a daily struggle for about 2 weeks. It's not really craving...it's not short and sharp and over quickly. It's more like a constant inner junkie dialogue. I think that I'm reaching the part of my quit where embracing freedom and breaking free of addiction is causing me to rethink a lot of other behaviors and attitudes that have been controlling my life. I'm not sure I like what I see and it's been a period of (sometimes painful) growth. It is definitely time for some forgiveness and acceptance and I can't find the links to either of the posts that I think have these titles, although I seem to remember reading them at some point. Maybe someone can pop them up for me ??image
I'm just reading and reading as my lifeline. I'm looking forward to being bronze but I need to remember to take it one day at a time and be proud of myself EVERY day.
Cindy
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I have been quit for 2 Months, 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 19 hours. I have saved $299.29 by not smoking 1,995 cigarettes. I have saved 6 Days, 22 hours and 15 minutes of my life.