Hi Sharon
Welcome to Freedom and congratulations on this your last quit.
I am 59 and I can identify with all you have written.
There wasn't a time, place or situation that I haven't smoked and I too was sick tired and guilty about it.
But now I close my eyes at night and just sleep.........there is none of this lying awake worrying and then getting up making image and smoking 3 or 4 nic sticks and then trying to get to sleep again.
The freedom from guilt and worry is incredible wish I had done it years ago.
We are all right beside you Sharon just NTAP
Sueimage
Free for 89 days after 45 years of feeding my addiction