Be strong Cheryl.
I can understand that the waiting is the hardest part - that makes perfect sense. I don't think you'd be normal if you didn't feel that way.
As far as wreckage of your past catching up to you..that's a moot point right now. You've been quit for 2 years and staying quit is important! What an awesome example for your girls!
You will be in my prayers!!!! God Bless
Nancy
One month, three days, 18 hours, 58 minutes and 54 seconds. 794 cigarettes not smoked, saving $192.33. Life saved: 2 days, 18 hours, 10 minutes.