Kristie, doesn't matter if one is self-employed, unemployed or over-employed when your addiction is active.
Nicotine provided the punctuation for my life for 32 years. I smoked before I started activities, to take a "break" from activities, to mark the finishing of activities. During the early days of my quit, I was astounded to discover how many times during the day my brain felt it was time for a smoke break (nicotine fix!). I kept discovering how I perceived that as my reward for doing things. Ironically, of course, all that smoking actually gets in the way of getting things done.
Recovery is a gradual process of rediscovering yourself. The foggy, directionless feeling you have will fade away. I promise. It takes time. Your will figure out how to provide definition to your day in other ways. You are healing, which is not always a comfortable process, but it is a good one. Keep reading, keep nurturing your quit and celebrate each and every day of your freedom. You are doing hard, life-saving work and deserve all the pats on the back that you can give yourself!
Best wishes,
imageParker - 45 months