wow this community is awesome and quick!  Thanks for all the replies...I AM reading lots more as you all suggested. And know this is helping.  Today I said goodbye to a tooth (getting older, this sometimes happens) the dentist was giving me instructions for after care and he said  "do you smoke?"  I proudly said "no, I don't".  Well, saying that came rather easily, and the feeling was overwhelming.  I AM PROUD OF ME!....there I said it.  So, as I walked to my car I hummed "taps" for my tooth, and DIDN'T reach for a cigarette!  GO ME!  Gaylo