Hi Nancy, thanks for writing. Wow, you had your first day without thinking about a cigarette...CONGRATULATIONS!   I am very happy for you. And jealous!  I would love to hear more about how that felt. I keep reading the material from Freedom, and reading and reading. Sometimes I think its counterproductive, like all I am doing is sitting here reading about smoking, you know? So I stop for awhile, to take my mind off of it. But I always come back, because I need the reinforcements. I feel like such a LOSER for even starting this habit. I get pretty down, and cry a lot lately. Quitting is depressing. Then I remember...no, smoking is depressing. It is so darn bad for me, and you, and everyone who starts!  Yesterday I had a thought: if I relapse, then I only have 2 choices left:  quit again, or die of emphysema. Neither one of those sounds appealing to me. So, one more day, no nicotine. Thanks again for writing, Sue