Thank you for writing this!! I am going to read it over and over...it is perfect. The mucks of depression.....yep....and being afraid of the permanence of the whole thing. I have told myself the past 32 days, "one day at a time" sometimes "one hour at a time". Now its the whole future looming...thats a big pill to swallow. I will re-read your post and let it sink in. NTAP....thanks! Sue