Thanks Tess and Sal.  I'm glad to know that I will get more comfortable in time.  I get fed up how my whole life (and I mean everything) is referenced to / tainted by nicotine.  Now I have to reclaim everything and build a new batch of life without it - even my new life seems like it will be referenced to the "absence of nicotine" - blurrghh. 

I know I'm going through the anger stuff.  But it's okay because I get lots of joy too.  No nicotine for me today - I can actually guarantee that one!