I need to put this down "on paper" so to speak...  I know this is it, I will definately make this my final quit but I need to admit that I am fantasizing about sitting outside smoking, I know there is nothing nice about it, especially in November in UK but I know tomorrow I will have the house to myself and that is when I used to smoke without too much worry that anyone would turn up!!  this is just spilling out so sorry if it makes no sense.

I must also remember that I didn't actually go anywhere during this time, I stayed at home as I needed to make the most of the time I had at home without anyone here - what a life eh?

tomorrow I will walk the dog, in the rain if needs be, but most definately I will not smoke!

Its a little wobble, I will be fine, I have re read about Bryan, that makes me so so sad and I am determined to succeed.  I just need to put my feelings into words. 

keep going Luce xxxx