Rangi - You are doing great and I can totally relate to wishing I was a never smoker instead of an addict.  I am impressed that you have gone "green" and hope I can achieve the same milestone.  Meanwhile I am riding out the urges one at a time telling myself over and over that I never want to smoke again.  It is a smelly disgusting habit that has nothing to recommend it.  I have to keep returning to my reasons for wanting to quit.  There is no good reason to want to smoke at all that I can think of.  When I think about the expense of smoking and the health dangers it makes me mad that I ever smoked at all -- how could I be that stupid!  But I was afraid to quit; afraid of the cravings. 

Keep up the good work!