Hi Karima,
You have found the best place on earth to stop  slowly killing yourself ,
like you I never realised I was an addict even after 45 years of ingesting poison,
all you need to do is read and watch all the great videos here and I can promise you 
it all becomes clear  how we lied to ourselves day in and day out ,year after year.
Start living life as you were meant to and not in a fog of lies. It gets easier every day 
when you NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF. We are all here to help each other.
Best Wishes,
Alma Gold x 1