Smoking dreams ahhhh!!!! they are nightmares and feel so real - it really felt like I'd been smoking when I woke up this mornring and I felt low and depressed and like I'd failed and....... it was just horrible!! don't get them too often but when they do it hits like a truck but also reminds me of how awful it would be if I did it for real.

I've been Christmas shopping with my hubby and, for probably the first time in years, didn't lose my rag!!! purely because I was seeing lots of people in town smoking away and I actually felt jealous - I was jealous of the fact they could just "do it" and not feel guilty or try to hide etc etc.... what this site has shown me is that even if you are not smoking in secret, the problems are still there - will I run out? can I smoke here? my friend doesn't smoke? it has been a real eye opener!! I think I thought I was alone and that everyone else was a happy smoker!! is there such a thing? having watched people smoke with very different eyes today nope I don't think so, they are pure and simply addicts!!

I am still amazed at this site and thank my lucky stars I found you all.

Lucie who has been away from the smelly disgusting things for 1 month and 2 weeks and is so chuffed with herself its untrue

Oh and might I add that I have put down the deposit on a tandem bike for me and my hubs - with the money I'd normally have burnt!!!
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