I have just read "have you ever..." thread, it is such powerful stuff and worth heading back to every now and again, I am totally amazed that I am not the only one who has done things that I wouldn't dream of doing, if I hadn't been an addict. I have felt that I was a bad person because I smoked, I now want to tell myself that I am not, I am a good Mum and love my family dearly but did do so many things to feed my addictions.

One thing that came up again and again was smokers destroying their cigs and then going back to them, I have done that so many times, ripped them up, then in the morning tried so hard to get something out of the bits!! I have thrown packets in bins all over the place, thinking that if I didn't have them then I would stop!! I was then so cross with myself because I had to try and get some which meant going to the local shop and hoping I didn't see anyone there who I knew because then I'd have to drive further away - I remember standing at the check out wondering if I can quickly ask and get the packet and put it in my bag before the person I knew saw me!! - how glad I am that is all over and I am so looking forward to a Christmas with my family without having to find some time to myself!!

Lucie
xx

I have been free for 1 Month, 3 Weeks, 13 hours, 7 minutes and 59 seconds (51 days). I have saved £185.56 by not smoking 618 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days, 3 hours and 30 minutes of my life.